for the entirety of my existence

i have wondered why

evangelicals cling so lovingly

to heaven as a tupperware party

and hell as an infinite cesspool of punishment

opposite the sky

…it is for these reasons

they need to believe there is a reward for the suffering humans endure

and

that there exists a place

worse

tailor made for the evil person thriving amongst us

a place for them

worse

than a village filled with the swollen bellies

of fly covered dying children

worse

than one of hitler’s gas chambers

worse

than a vivisection tent during the civil war

where slave women had there genitals

hacked apart by confederate doctors

worse

than the screams and stench of a chicago

slaughter house in 1879

worse

than the hands of a pedophile

worse

than the greasy mouth of a politician

somewhere

worse

than

this

life