i lost my shit
in the laundry aisle
of a grocery mega store

my double decker mini cart
stacked with
blood oranges
white wine
swordfish
and jasmine rice

perhaps it was the way
i was forced to face oxi clean power packs
the color boosting stain removing kind
toddlers are reportedly fond of eating
while listening to a maudlin track
by coldplay
hating the designer grocery shopping moment

and how
it all amounts to student loans
a mortgage
a dog who will always need a walk
and a lifetime of nights
not being the woman standing beside you
doing dishes
saying your name in sock feet